| Wednesday, August 30, 2006 |
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Car & New Crib....
CHICKEN....!!!!!....Yesterday my exhaust dropped off as I was on my way to a site visit. So today I took a half day off to get it fixed. Shockingly it cost me £70 ...!!!!..£$%^&* ...Darn it. Been saving for an induction kit and bang it went to the exhaust. Worse thing is...my car used to Grrrrrowl......but now it just meekly purrrr.....Bo Lat....*faint* Well at least I'm back to my initial plan to change for a quieter exhaust. Hehehe. Anyway got a present for my car....a front upper strut...Sparco....yummy......
Guess that till now I think I'm having a pathetic life. Car freak. -_- Anyway enuff bout car. Getting tired of it....finish pimping it....I need a life...!!!!...HELP...!!
End of Sept I'll be moving to my new place in Eastleigh. Goodbye Portsmouth....after 5 years living there.....hmmm...dunno wht I'm gonna miss. Sure will miss Charlene.....but I'll pop over for the weekend. Got my own flat this time 2 storey flat. Bed room and bathroom in the first floor and living room with kitchen and dining on the ground floor. Nice homey neigbourhood. Will post pic when I move in. Rental is very steep compared with what I'm paying now but....well..minus the car petrol and wear&tear...I guess it worth it.....NEED BIGGER SALARY...WOI....!!!
The Past, The Present And The Future - Part I
02 July 2006
It is so hot that I can't even lift a finger.....barely. It is hot and dry...feeling of thin air and suffocating....uugghhh.... I think i'll be heading to the beach later...just to sit around and enjoy a slight breeze of fresh air....but first have to address my hunger....hmmm...feeling hungry now....
Jeez...the whole weekend just sit around.....can't say lazing...cos I hate lazing around.....just din get the time to do wht I wanna do.....got a com sitting downstairs waiting for me to give it a tweak and run it as my internet server....jeez...I just need to get my ass up and start doing. These 2 days just been doing things spontaneously.....like...hmm...ok lets go.....errr...go where...???.....errr...ok Gunwharf.....away I go....to meet Charlene...who was spending a rather BORING day at work....finished her lunch hour before 3pm...!!!!...Bugger....How often does tht happened..???!!!...Things must be that bored.
Hmmm..Not bad....words started to flow.....Mind is running....ok I ran out of juice.....uugghh...just kidding....well....just wanna say that I got my car fixed....the car looks brand new now....Oh crap...I forgot to wash the car....there's still time.....always at the end of a weekend I tends to forgotten all the things I've planned to do...and ended up postponing it to the next weekend....Buggeroo....hmmm...I better lay off the "......" getting noticible all across the post. Hehe
Haven got time to call Mandy and Lyn. Jeez. But manage to call Lena till my batt ran out. Mom gonna kill me. I forgot to call her too!!! Not actually forgotten lah, just that currently I can't face my family with the dilemma that I'm facing now. Financial Difficulty. No matter how well I try to manage it...it just fall over. Until one day I realise, I got a rubbish pay. Darn it. How the hell am I gonna face my parents...jeez..the burden is humongeous.
Wht more...I got to cough up 350 quid just to advance payment for my car repair then claim it from my insurance company. Insurance company are bloody useless. Calling them for many hours trying to get things through and I worried tht my this mth's bill gonna skyrocketted. More worries.
Anyway next week is coming...another vicious fight towards the end of the month till pay day. Today is just the 2nd and I got half the salary left. 600 quid spent in 2 days....OH GAWD. Well life like tht...tough shit. Wht i dun wanna do is to affect my well being and my sanity. Luckily office guys are marvelous....been very supportive and understanding.
But then hey...office work have been tremendously exciting....without realising it....it is already the end of the week. That's how interesting my job can get. My senior used to say that the worst thing about working in an Ang Mo company is the boredom....but I'll say in my case.....the stuffs been coming in truck loads.... can u imagine....having 2 days off...when u return...ur outlook are practically jammed with emails....85 new mails...!!!!!..took me 3 hours just to sort it out.!!!!! But then it is challenging and I'm loving it. Just the pay are crap and rubbish.
Well well well....see how much I have written. I've some differences in the way I'm thinking at the moment. Last time I was able to think ahead...mebbe 1 year in advance, but see how things conjured up at the moment, I can hardly plan for next month. And that started to worry me. I used to be able to grasp my life and plan it the whole month through, but at this moment, I'm haphazard disorganised and take things one day at a time. I'm just hoping tht nothing major gonna happen these few weeks or else shit gonna hit the fan anytime soon. Feeling very vulnerable. I am the the type of person tht dictate my own life and take life at the scruff it its neck. But now I feel like free falling without a parachute and dunno how far I'm going to fall. I haven't see where this gonna ended up at. The fear factor. Well this month gonna be a tough month ahead.
The only thing to look up to is Dee's visit to England. I've missed her so much. She is one of my most treasured friend and we have been friends together since we were 7. Now that's almost 20 years ago....my childhood friend. It used to be quite a few of us. But as life goes by....people tends to drift away and lead their separate lives. But then there are people like Dee and Jerie that hold on to this friendship and hold on to it. Still remember when we are young during teen life where all the girls kept an autograph....the popular ones will have several every year..??? The most popular quote is Friends Forever....not true most of the time....after Primary 6, a quater of them will go somewhere else....transfered to other school or classes. They disappeared. Then came Form 4 with Science and Art Stream....most got separated and blown away in the wind of time. Then the first crossroad of life, college and university. Most almost all of us got separated and well some just plain disappeared. Each will have their own set of friends and groups. Some just lost touch and disappeared.
Now at the age of 26, all of my friends are pursuing their careers, engaged, half got married, and some already have a kid or two...!!! And until today, now while I'm typing din realise how much peoples life have changed, how far mine's been taking me. Sitting here contemplating how much time have passed and many have come and go. Feels like time has just reverse itself and I'm remembering the time where I stood among many others monkeying around under Rambo Tree in Ong Tiang Swee with John Lio and Lee Kiet, fighting with Terrence Leong and Nigel, being notorious at school, throwing tennis balls with Reza and Hardy Hamden, being best friend with Hyril .... and the most of all....my first mentor....Mr George Michael Tan. A well respected man and some I got close to and gain his attention for being notorious.
There is so much in life that we have gone through and most of the time, we never looked back. And after a time, we ceased to remember our childhood friends and knowing wht have made us who we are today. People like Jerie, Dee, Jo and Shim have made me wht I am today. Now thats is wht I call friends and they are really wht Friends Forever stands for. And now I got a phone call from Sam. Mandy's bf. Wht can I say about him but just being plain troublesome. Calling me when his com crapped up. He is like wht I feel like some chewing gums that got stucked under my shoes. Bothersome and annoying. And hard to get rid off.....*frowning* there are others like him that I may or may not mention. One thing for sure...people like him...AVOID AT ALL COST. He may need you one day, but most day he is willing to kill you. Creepy.
I think this is an overly long post....dunno whether it will get publish or not...but will keep Charlene happy for a very long time....haha. So here you go Charlene. Read to your heart content. And have a good laugh. I'm hungry now...gonna try out my new pasta recipe.
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| Tuesday, August 08, 2006 |
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Just Another Day Well...here I am sitting in my office, fiddling around with my pen and try to look busy (as usual). Feel really tired today having to wake up 6.00 in the morning and to drive 40 min to work. Life can't get any better than this. By the time I got to the office, I'm ready to go home...!!!
Stayed up very late yesterday cos I was reading a good book and it is hard to tear my eyes off it till I got to the very end. And now sitting here, I felt like someone has been flushing my head in the toilet bowl a couple of time. Things are not looking up. Tons of work stacked up on my desk with bits and pieces of papers strewned all over my table waited to be sorted out. Well this gonna be another day at work *sigh*. Its time to get some magic water..!! Coffee. The substance that will keep me going for the rest of the day. By the end of the day, I will be reduced to a caffeine loaded zombie that stare blankly at my computer screen.
Looking outside, the blue sky, the green trees and the chirping birds seems to be beckoning me to spend a day outside and here I am, sitting here, looking out *sob*. Someone get me outta here..!!! Can't wait for the weekend ... and that's a day away. My colleague is suggesting to visit a local pub nearby during lunch break and hey..thats a very good idea =) It is kind of a routine outting usually on Friday, but today the weather looks too nice to be stuck here in the office. So hopefully I could dunk a pint or two, a game of pool and soak up the sun. Things might improve for the better later in the afternoon. Jeez....all this ranting really make me sounded like I'm having my mid-life crisis. Well....more like a quarter-life crisis. Haha.
Tonite will be my second attempt to get my TV to work again =( When one of my director overheard that I don't have a TV, he was horrified and offered me one of his 14' portable TV. Great..!!!..Finally I got a TV to watch. The problem now is that currently the room I'm renting is more of a bunker than a proper room. Trying to get a reception in my room is like setting up a TV in an underground car park. Yesterday, I bought a long aerial cable with magnetic end so u can stick it to something metallic outside the house for reception. So yesterday nite, I was out and about , armed with my magnet, sticking it to anything from water pipes, rubbish bins, garage doors, laundry lines and even my car...!!! but to no avail. Reception in my housing area is really terrible. So have to make do with grainy pictures for now =( Tonite I might grab my cooking wok and stuck it on top of the roof. Lets see how things go tonite. |
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| Monday, August 07, 2006 |
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Reflection Of Life
Its 12.30am on the Tuesday morning. Can't sleep with lots to worry about. Work, finance, working relationship, time and the most importantly, My Life. Recently, my life have sunk to an all time low. Living a life as a bachelor most people think is a blessing and freedom for granted, but for people like me, when struggle through life alone, constantly fighting against the tide, looking back where you realise that you are alone against the sea, sometimes you wish to stop fighting and set urself adrift. Sometimes I feel like I am standing alone in the world, among the crowd yet still feeling like I am looking through the spy glass. Many lives come and go oblivious to their surrounding. As I stands here observing people around me going through their daily lives, I am amazed at times where people are just so engrossed with the notion of earning money, that they can forsake all their lives.
Then they are some who takes things for granted. Living in their own little shells hiding never go out to venture into a tough real world ahead. I am so taken back with some people who can be so ignorant and so arrogant with their life that you wish life itself will deal them a joker and throw them into the fray. Will they make it out alive ? Perhaps not. Most individuals that I met in everyday life, well most are either materialistic or individualistic. Some sadly have been swept away in the angry current of money making and work loads.
Maybe that is the life here in England. My life here in a foreign land. Know nobody and feel like a stranger in an alien world cut off from all the familiarity and security. The feeling of vulnerability and hopelessness. What is the point being successful when you are living a miserable and lonely life ? A life on your own where there's no one cares whether you live or die. Many have said it is easy to hook up with someone and find a companionship. Is it so easy as it seems? Is it worth the trouble or is it just a waste of time? Maybe it is the time just to think it through, putting some effort into it and pull my guts together. Heck...I just can't be bothered with such stuffs...!!!
Though being here far from home, they are a few friends that I can say really worth being with Lena and Mandy, they have been really sweet and fantastic to be with. Even by talking in the phone, they pull you into their life, making you feels like you are a part of their life. Then there is my really dear friend of mine, Dee, a friend that I grew up with, though we seldom communicate, everytime we meet up, it is a pleasurable moments. Things that we talk about, everything under the sun, bringing up the best of everything and it is so entertaining and laughter. Reminding me, sometimes you have to look at life at a different angle. Thanks Dee.
Then came a stupid, perverbial, obnoxious and twister individual that I called my bro. I can't stand him at times. But then he got that damn charm that really pissed me off and make me feel darn itchy fingers to really tweak his ears. That demented bugger. Surprisingly he grew up from a shoddy SOB to a rather ....damn...lost of word....well...rather nice asshole....hahahahhaha....lol...oh he gonna love this. Damn discredited my first blog......from an innocent rant to a full blown porn....damn him. Well....that all the compliment I can give you....now shod off....hehe...woi...had a good laugh that day. Haven't laugh that hard for bloody ages...!!! Can't remember when is the last time I've laugh that hard. =) Thanks a lot you bloody idiot. I think he gonna rip this apart as well....
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